(It was enough now. Kanda couldn't fool anyone, nor himself, into having any sort of emotional regulation. Sometimes he was stoic, cool, and calm, but that didn't mean it was because he had the ability to emotionally regulate. In his case, he didn't have the important developmental years that most people underwent. Not to say that everyone had an appropriate, enriching, environment to learn how to deal with their emotions. No, that wasn't it at all.
He knew others suffered from poor childhoods, rough backgrounds, terrible evils done unto them by not demons but by humans.
So, to say the least, this was new to him. Again and again, he finds this revelation breathing through him from time to time as these little sweet moments pass between himself and Enji. These sweet bitter moments which twist the depths of his heart; weaving it between comfort and hopelessness.
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Date: 2020-02-08 09:41 pm (UTC)He knew others suffered from poor childhoods, rough backgrounds, terrible evils done unto them by not demons but by humans.
So, to say the least, this was new to him. Again and again, he finds this revelation breathing through him from time to time as these little sweet moments pass between himself and Enji. These sweet bitter moments which twist the depths of his heart; weaving it between comfort and hopelessness.
What am I going to do.. when you leave for good?)